supposingly someone will be proud of himself when he has learnt smth new tat others dunno / cant make it rite?

recently i found myself hv learnt smth tat not everybody can do... but i nvr pround of it n i hate it instead... dunno since when i've taken up this powerful kung fu.... but i just realised it on this week... i found that i can fall asleep with my eyes open!!! ho liao bo??? i really cant imagine tat i hv this 'kung fu'!!! my life bcome tiring day by day... everytime feel very tired even the time when i just wake up in the morning... cant believe tat i hv just get up from bed or wat...i just feel like hvn't take any rest b4... recently, i found myself couldn't concentrate during lec. with my eyes open, wat the lecturer said will flow into my ears then passed by my mind, n without getting tafsir of it, it ald flow out from another ear... omg.... and i hv to waste my time to study again when back home... izzit tat i'm doing extra work? while others are revising their studies... i just wanna start to tafsir it n no time to revise it!!!haih... tu dia...........

自从上了advance y2, 日子一天比一天更难过....

从早忙到晚, 一天比一天模糊....

有时甚至忙到晚上时都想不起当天到底做了什么...

为何我的生活变成了酱?

好像被捆在很深很深的谷里, 里面好黑暗, 伸手不见五指...

好想发出声音叫救命, 但哪里会有人听到呢???

会有人来救我出来吗? 这次我真的不知道了.....

我真的迷了路.... 我的人生方向呢??? 咳........

 

今天突然想听黄义达,王心凌(爱你),李久哲(影子)和张栋梁(当你孤单你会想起谁)等等人的歌....

因为这些歌是我刚进入diploma时,在宿舍里长听的歌....

好怀念当时的日子...

起初, 由我和两位roomates开始住的一间空溜溜的家,

慢慢的住满了新朋友, 那些人出出进进, 好快的, 两年就酱过了...

最终我们三人是唯一没搬的人...

diploma 的日子真的是好轻松.... 天天上学回家, 谈天过日子,有时还有很多多余的时间睡午觉呢....

这样的日子已成了我们 No 26 这间家每个人的美好回忆...

好想念当时我们一家人的生活, 好想念你们啊 !!!!

 

为何我们必须长大呢??? 长大后只有增加我们的烦恼!!!

我知道这是人生必经阶段... 我只不过是想'san ha zek'....

以我的生活, 我已经比很多人更幸福了....

再辛苦 / 幸福的人多得是... 人比人比死人....

OEX 加油吧.... 再辛苦的日子还在等着你呢.... 加油!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

it's almost the end for my 3rd week in this semester.... wow... i ald in kl for 3 weeks d ah??!! feel like just reached kl for 1 week leh... everyday bz like hell here till my parents cant recognise me!!! wat a cacat timetable in this sem... at least hv 2 days tat in between has 4.5 hr break... drag my time till late evening... come back home in between r wasting my time travel n waiting for bus; if stay in library then will be very tired n cant concentrate in the latter class... so wat can i do?? the notes n books in this sem are as  high as mountain... somemore, we r taking ACCA core papers (which hv quite a high failure for the past) this sem, a lot of things hv to know and hv knowledge on biz issue... hv to read a lot biz magazine n article... and we r required to think like a proffesional...omg! i'm just a noob tat never care bout those issues tat happened around in m'sia or even in the world.... my cacat brain really dont hv such ability to think.... whether can survive for this sem is still a doubt now...

 

our intensive test will be on w8... if cant manage to exceed the threshole, then habis la aku ni.... as wat my lecturer said: c u next yr... haih.... this sentense really a nightmare for all of us... this sem i keep myself bz from the 1st week till n ow, try to revise wat the lecturer teached everyday, but still hv a lot of things i dunno... if wanna finish the notes, then no time for magazine(can earn any thinking skill or knowledge), if choose to read magazine, then cant finish my note.... 24hrs per day is not enuf la... i need at least 48hrs per day!!! the cacat timetab also giving us a big headache prob for us staying away from kl... fri lec till 5pm! wat the ....dooot....!!!  nomore back hometown eventhough this weekend is fathers' day, sat hv extra class pulak.... lecturer said everyday is fathers n mothers day.... so no 'BIG' deal.... wow...wat a gd explanation tat she really say to us.... haih... bo huat la. she saidd she's sacrifice for us, so we hv to do so in return... APPRECIATE it lo... cos i know she also think for us, want us to score, if cant score then at least must pass... this is wat she always tell us... thank u, n i'll appreciate it, i promise... but i'm worried for my another sub. the lecturer is like 'superman'(superman is a bit too much la, but i duno how to describe d)... he knows everything n able to share with us, but unfortunately he is not the tutor for my class... the tutor tat teaches us so far is keeping disappointed us... during tutorial, u stare at me n i stare at u... never evaluate n teaches us how to tackle those cases in magazine as our lecturer did for other classes... so wat to do??? eat ourself lo...

 

other than tue, i'm having 8am class for the rest of the days.... wake up earlier is not a big deal.... the prob is, coll is totally lack of bus services... although we get out at 7.30am, we also could late for classes, cos we cant get up any busses tat passed by with a  pack of sardin fishes inside... it's always FULL at the station b4 us. sometimes it also hard for us to get a public bus, either it is full or none of the buses pass by at tat 'critical' time... the worse is all the taxi tat passed by also full with passengers d!! i hate to be late for classes... it really may affect my mood during lecture especially the time when i cant get the bus n then rush to class, at the end i still late for class... haih... everything seems like go adverse against me.... i dunno i still can tahan for how long here.... but will try my best.... since the day i stepped in kl coll, i hv to try my best to complete it!!!  (hope it can be happen to me next yr)....